Filigree re-repercussions upon love-echoes, original voices.
Original voice.
Claim I to be you?
The depth of inner communication does not seem to be able to be shared with those fellows available here. Do I call out into the depths of the net to enhance my vision of friends as able (inside) communicators?
I do seriously know those beings present as the Seraphim guiding me and the Father fragment indwelling me. Here, I experience sight that I with all hope search for in my honest fellows. But how can they (not) know? Oh, what a desaster has the rebellion brought to us!
Now, when I try to find lovers and a partnership, one lover, and a being together, hardly anything of these true realms can be shared. A fascinating phenomenon; that I, even on request, cannot give up what is existential.
So, my natural reaction is just to "give up" those sweet ones that cannot / do not share. To be left with these inside worlds only? Well, that it feels hard does not feel so bad, because at least, it feels true. But it is a struggle indeed.
Now, when I hope for a lover that cannot give clear signals by nature (you cannot truly mate to something that you feel is beyond your borders - because you feel that you cannot share what "is not present") - I have to draw back into the superposition of equality; the equivalent act of co-feeling brotherhood. Silent, with some help for the curious.
What is this action like that strives to come up: to express the limits of the circumcised world view in that I am estimated and so very carefully judged? Oh, drama, what patience do you need! Not exchange is possible, it is the new work of Sisyphos: the Stone will not come down, but the speed is as slow as a series of lifetimes not to count in but one lifetime.
Now, in this lifetime, we will have a culmination of understanding; something unjudgeable for us, the less-experienced. Something hardly judgeable for those fellows active in the higher realms. Even the understanders, knowing "the material", hardly have those deeper inner insights; and I still miss much of that, but I love it, very very deeply. It is my lifesign in a world of potential life.
How not to become cynical and sarcastic in a world of so much spiritual disorientation? How to be sharing with those that want to convince you of what you already believe in, even deeper than them? How?
Just so, like Sisyphos, the New Sisyphos: slowly, very slowly - in their pace.
This is, what allows us, maybe, by respect, to follow our own pace, inside: a sign of liberation, of true self-awareness. I have my own pace... too ;-)
Phew!
nohau - 3. Mai, 14:14