Nothing is so secure like the own inner place to think, to process.

What's "on the screen" tonight? Coming over an illness, feeling what it could mean to really (!) .... (!!).... have a partner :-)

The well meant pat on the back of my father to take time makes, at least, some more sense.

I feel words to become the fastes tools for expression, almost adequate expression (the expressed becoming as equivalent as possible to what it is aiming to refer to).

Careful family thoughts. Not yet in that boat that can swim, but healingly well, somehow.

What was I learning the last days?

• Something about how good it feels to work (live) for the things you really want
• Something about that family is the circle of loved ones among that I actually MAY (have to) be myself
• About that copying behaviours has (may have) a limited use
• Something about sociophobia
• Something about that it can feel good to be honest to "past persons" in my life
• About how good it feels to give up everything that costs to much power to uphold (the funny sentence to add..: "...when you're ill" :-) ...)
• ... and more

Feels good to write again. Need to find the CD for Anne. Thinking of my grandfather and his writing of diary. I send out a quick prayer to be healthy tomorrow morning... ugh! :-)

A lovely chaos in my room. A long day tomorrow! Starting at 9.00, having to leave at 7.30, that makes getting up at 5.30 to latest 6.00 ...Good night, fellow!